Fart-faced Ken and stinky-faced Van

For 3 months, i was literally working my butts off! Now, when everything is over, I feel weird. I guess it is normal to feel that way.. Tuitions still remain. It is definitely a committment and responsibility that I have for 6 times a week. I will give myself another 2 years max. However, I will try to reduce the number of tuitions I have after the end of this year. Cos I wanna spend more time with my ken. :) I know i will regret it if i dont spend more time with him. I cant be selfish, cos relationship is also a committment.

Searching for job is hard. I dont feel like working so soon.. I cant believe that I am stepping into the working world! Frends keep asking if I found a job already. It sucks.. I just hope to repeat my life again!

The things that I desire most is to exercise, eat healthy, sleep more, learn cooking and do some shopping! :) I wanna be a happy healthy vanny! for happy healthy kenny! Wheee~

I am going to make a major decision in my life that might affect my relationship with ken. Flying might just change our lives.. I appreciate ken’s support in everything i do. He has never stopped me or retrict me in anything. However, I know i cant take this for granted. How can i abandon him and go travel around the world? How can I be so heartless?

I heard both views on this issue and it makes complete sense. I feel more confused now than ever. Maybe I should just stick to Plan A rather than Plan B. Maybe i should go with my gut rather than mind/heart.

Am i gg to lose everything that we have painstakingly built in the 25 months? I dunno what to think at this moment. I just know that we must have faith and the 2 years will pass very fast.

I dunno why my character is just so soft. I help people, think of people, isnt those good qualities? When my useless and blur groupmate couldnt handle the vendors, I have to take over and got scolding from vendors. The table is too small etc.. wth. The groupmate is super useless, inefficient and incapable. Thank goodness it is all over. She still told me she feel sad that the prj ended.. WTH. She is not even doing a lot, yet she couldnt do her part well.

I cant wait for this stupid project to end pls. It is so time-consuming and taxing. I have 2 stupid idiots working with me, and that is the worst nightmare ever. Even though the event turned out well, i am rly glad it ended.

Vanny, stop being so soft-hearted. Protect yourself before you protect others.

My bf is like a child, a baby whom i wanna dote on. He dances, do stunts just to make me laugh. He is always successful! :) He helps me and protects me whenever  we are out. But he is not possessive. I like the way he dote on me like its our honeymoon period. I enjoy being with fart-faced kwong! I hope he does too! And dun make silly decisions or mistakes anymore. Really hope so..

My event is in a week’s time! OMG! The Tinted Lab, my event, will be successful. :) Well, after planning for 12 weeks, it’s time to shine! WOW! I didnt spend much time with ken for this sem and I feel guilty somehow. I took up 4 tuitions that covers 6 days a week, i took up a new language (FRENCH), have to do reports and took up the role as the leader of a music event with 2 other gals as my group mate. I was crazy, but no longer will I be.

It is hard to maintain a r/s when you are so busy. You might even start to question yourself if the r/s is still working. But deep in your heart, you feel as though the person is there with you all the while. That is very comforting esp in harsh conditions. It is better if he actually understands and willing to wait for you till everything ends. :)

Freedom seems reachable now. I am starting to see the silver lining at the end of the rainbow! And most importantly, I saw ken next to me as well. Love you baby!

1 more month till my event! OMG.. I cant wait to relax and go out shopping! Retail therapy in demand! Even if I take up 4 tuitions, I feel that I have no time to spend at all. Makes me feel unhappy. :( The kids are very different from each other, and I have to adapt to each and every one of them. Some are slow in learning, some are too hyper and never listen to me, some are self-motivated but always make careless mistakes etc.. I feel that I am so old. I have to achieve more in life before I leave this planet one day. But looking at the current situation, my body cannot take the stress that I am gg through right now. I guess, I shall stop dreaming.

Back to reality, I feel uphappy. I have to do so much work in my last semester. Yes, I asked for it. I chose the heavy mods and 4 tuitions, 6 days a week. I am not superwoman i realised. Im human. I still want to go out and enjoy, meet friends, pak tor w ken etc. And for the past 2 months, I am unable to achieve it. I have so much things to think and do, until I feel as though my brain is floating. Im brainless!

What can i do? I chose it, theres no turning back. I guess it holds true for other aspects in life. I have to be a responsible gf, tutor, student and work my ass off for another 1 more month. Hang in there Vanny!

To King Kong

You are a prince in disguise. Why do you continue to wear the hairy black suit? Won’t you feel hot in it? Why are you so naughty all the time?

From Queen Kong

To Insect xxxxx:

You give me the creeps. Everytime you sink your razor-sharped teeth into my skin, it hurts me so badly. I don’t like your stinky slimy saliva when you salivate on my cheeks to irritate me. After losing 4 legs, you seem to crawl faster than me. Whenever I wake up, you will always hide away from me. Your claws are so sticky that whenever you start pinching me, I can’t seem to escape from your clutches. You are such a scary insect. I honestly don’t know how to destroy you!

From Insect xxxxx

How stupid is vanny soh. So busy and tired already, still take up another tuition assignment. DUMB RIGHT? well, sometimes so many things to think cn be very stressful. But i have to be immune to the stress. Never give up, learn to manage time well. My 2 mottos for this sem. LOL!

I love my bf. he understands that his gf is very tired and busy. And he makes an effort to make me laugh whenever he knows that i am stressed. He also help share my workload, and i really appreciate it. Merci beaucoup!

All summarized in one word. TIRED. whenever i end class, ill msg my groupmates or call them to discuss. Gosh, there are so many things to settle for just one event. Since there are only 3 of us, we have to keep it in school and not the plan that i wanted, double O. Okay, never mind. I just wish that i have the chance to create a big grand event one day. Things would be very hectic for me even more until April. Time management is very important and i am going to make this music event a success. Yo-yo-yo!

Au Revoir!

Happy chinese new year everyone! I did not buy any new year clothes this year, BUT, i shall buy some clothes that are suitable for work as well. haha.. Baby had reunion dinner with moi and moi family! I dunno why he has the power to make each and everyone in my family to adore him. sickening! even rocky likes him, maybe cos ken plays with him. haha.. but i am sure ken do not like rocky. haha.. always call him a stupid useless dog. Well, he will never understand the affection that i have for rocky. He is like my baby nephew. :) i love him! 5 years tgt was horribly awesome!

my bf calls me a bak kwa.

Dislike you.

you are the butcher. 

Had steamboat buffet w ken friends. OMG.. i am fat. haha.. ken cn really eat alot! he is a monster! scary~ even his other guy friends eat lesser than him! haha.. well, i was filling my tummy with lotsa vege, fish and mushroom. Whee~ while ken was fillin his tummy with crab, liver, kidney and vege. Unhealthy.

Hiking this weekend! excited! Make ken become a muscle man. LOL!

This sunday would be my 2nd year with fart-faced ken! It has been such an exciting journey.. Well, it seems like only 2 months since we got tgt! I dun think i will ever get enuff of him and all the fun conversations we have! Most imptly, we are happy and we do see a future tgt. tt is all that matters. :) And i shall be the happiest girl in the whole wide world if we cn be tgt forever! Wheeee~

i love the way we are now. Playing tgt like little kids, talking to each other like friends, caring for each other like lovers and cuddling into his arms like soulmates.. Ken taught me a lot about life. And i believe that my presence has changed his life as well. The thang is that we grow as a couple and never save on how much love we give each other. Giving his all and never ask anything in return is something is what i admire. Putting me before himself is what touched me. Treating me like a lady, loving me like his baby, and repecting me like a woman is what i love about him.

Being a man whom i can rely on is a huge deal! cos security is key, and i do feel protected and safe. 2 years have passed, and my love for him is still growing. I thank God for you! OMG! hahaha.. IM A HAPPY FRUIT!!!!!

First day of school, and ken is late! haha.. I think it is wiser of him to travel to my hse and go to sch by bus. It takes a shorter time! haha.. dunno if he knows tt! but i think he does not want to keep transiting. his choice! hope he doesnt sleep in class! haha.. hope he drinks his coffee! :) Next week would be my turn and I am never gonna be late! muahaha.. suck thumb! well, i am very excited about my last sem cos the mods appeal to me! French, Music and a COM mod. The best thing is tt ill be able to create a music event in the sem! how cool is tt? ;p

My swollen eye is curing.. I am nervous about tml. My new tuition kid is from China, and her english is not good. I will have to do a lot of translating from eng to chinese, in order for her to understand. oh boy..